♥ 091209 ♥

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

its getting onhold now.

life is getting slightly better now. now that i got alot of

positive people all around me. including people i dun noe. thank u all so

much for ur support!

i really needed it. i have bunch of WONDERFUL FANTASTIC frens

that never fails to light me up during my sullen period.

thanks alot of millionssssss people.

so, the slacking session does alot to put me off stress! i'll update a proper post soon with

the pix alryte. as for now, i'm struggling with my assignments! 'deadline' are coming

faster than i thought it would! so far, i've done with my

notes sumarising during the CNY and its like phewww.......

hahaha.. ok.. till the next proper post ok pumpkins! take good care of urselves

like the way u guys took good care of me!

MUAAAACCCCCKKKKSSS!!!!

Monday, January 26, 2009

i miss u...my family..

well..ya.. life sucks! maybe not yours, but mine.

my family background sucks. my love life sucks-BIG time!

my studies sucks. my financial sucks. my body sucks.

almost EVERYTHING sucks.

believe it or not, its true.

actually, the reason why i post this is because i REALLY MISS MY FAMILY!

like damn lot!

i miss my dad. i really miss being his daughter. i really miss calling him "ayah.."

and i miss him calling me "adik.." i really miss the time that he will console me when mama scold me. and miss the quality time when we both were left stranded

at home wif no food and that last for 2 years! mama walked out with abang and addin and i was left with ayah. it was hard for me but ayah, u were there for me until the past

5 years. i've been alone. without u. u wanna noe y? becos u hated me for failing my

exams. u hated me so much that u throw me out of the house. out of ur life indeed!

i tried to contact u but u refused to talked to me or even glance at me.

that lasted for 3 freaking years! and by the time u talked to me back, i've already found

the strenght to get over it, through mama.

mama have been there for me after u left me. eventhough living

with mama is way far difficult compared to u, i'm still happy.

even i was tight with my financial i still survived happily.

even i have to work extra hours and my only time to study is on my way to work

or school, i still aced my exams becos i dun want to repeat the same failure which brought me to where i am today...-at mama's house. but, i'm still happy till yesterday.

i suddenly miss u. i suddenly felt that u have not been fair to me and addin.

i miss my parents. i miss their tender loving care. i miss mama. i miss ayah.

i noe now ayah are happy with his new family. and, u deserve that ayah.

mama, i'm praying hard for ur happiness everyday- i swear! hopefully ur day wil come.

i even go the extra miles for mama to ensure that she got wat she deserve. which is the BEST that no other woman deserve cos she was there to bring me in her home when i

came knocking on her door crying with my luggage.

well, both of u have done ur part. i thank u millionsssssss!!!!

but, one thing for sure, ur love wasn't enuff and never will be enuff

for me cos i'm struggling with my life without u both.

especially u ayah. i really misses u alot! i'm wondering how will my wedding be like without either one of my parents if i ever got one.

i want a father-daughter time, day and life.

everything! now that ayah is happy and have new responsibilities, i'll just let him be.

the only thing ayah will say to me if he contact me now is hinting me not to ask any more money from him which i did only if i really have no money to buy my skool's stuffs.

which i believe is still his responsibilities. but, nvmd.... i'll just have to keep myself

away from ayah. he deserves his happiness. so, ayah, if u feel that u need me, i'm always there for u but, if i ever need u now, i have to think about ur new family which needed u the most. miss u ayah. i love u. i wish u will feel the same but, no, i dun think so.

u got a new daughter now and i'm sad that i'm no longer your only daughter.

but its ok, the 2 years is enuff for me to have a good memory of an excellent dad i had.

may u wil be blessed with happiness throughout.

loving u always....azura majid..

missing u badly ayah.... love u..

Thursday, January 22, 2009

the moment is here! hehehehe.....

after a looooonggg time did not meet up with the clicks from secondary skool,

i finally got to spent a valuable time with them yesterday! thanks to zainul's organisation!

badminton was F.U.N!!!!!

a self tournament. haha.. but it was really entertaining. sahil, zainul, sapiq, rozzy, shikin and me.

it was enuff to make a hetic day turned to an enjoyable one!

this pic was taken during our match! mind u, its DURING!!!

the doubles.

sahil is a sore loser! da kalah nak salah kan org!
da tak bagos buat hal tak bagos la! I believe rozzy u agree wif my statement ryte??

presenting....the gelap and the bone! hehehe... no offence zainul!

cicak jatuh! hahahaha.....

we're lucky enuff to get a court near the stage. no need to worry as our

valuables are jus ryte infront of our eyes. so, therefore... the stage

we treat it like our 'house'. haha.. omg.. i really enjoyed myself!

the traditional method of who stay who play

bangla la tu! oops!!! bangge....salah...

dun mess with the coach!

zainul, shikin and i met up at tamp first to get our rackets. as my father's house and zai's house is jus walking distance away. cabbed down to pasir ris cc. zainul blanje.

like wat he told us, "aku ade rezeki..." (apape la...watever..)

btw...thank u!

we were the first to get there and then came rozzy. so pemalas of her to take

the bus! her house is just walking distance away fyi!

singapore's worst players! any agency wants us?? we're open!

after the game, we walked down to white sands and have mc'.. thanks guys for blanja-ing me! then lepak under the block and hear sahil's amazing story about his fren. hahaha..fascinating! jadi hero konon! nak safe kawan bey takot! hahahaha...looking forward for more!!! ice skating is on for me!!!! weee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

so.. here are the updates pumpkins!!

let me start off with the OUTDATED ones first la ok.

exactly last week, sabrina didn't turn up, so, our research and

methodology class was cancelled. since we have almost

5 more hours to our next class, we decided to have our breakfast at mc'donalds down at bras basah. one thing for sure, that upgraded mc' was damn cozy ah!

almost half the class were there. see the pix right at the bottom! then lepak with

antonette and vanitha at tcc while waiting for

video production to start.......

so, after that updates.....came the NAFA open house.

well, it was tiring! ok larr.. my invited

frens didn't turn up!

sad man!... zero support. even on saturday before work.

ok la.. nvmd.. its over! no more invites next time!

haha.. the 2nd day (sat) i helped out till 2pm

then i rushed to work. fuhh.... tired!!!! my legs were aching at flume!

i asked ernie to control till i came back from break!

tanx gerlfren! hehehehe... balik, as usual lepak!!!!!!!!!!!

so, sunday.. was working alone with zainul. all my other clicks were off!

did kiddy track! tanx to those people who

didn't turn up for work! but, lucky not so boring.

rakesh was at choo choo train. hahaha.. competing each other!!!!

then went back and do some stuff at home before headed down back to tamp for a swim with hui li. it was fun! its been a long time i didn't soak myself in chlorine water! then, vishal fetched us to buy for syukri's b'day cake.

celebrated under his block. it was supposed to be a surprise...BUT...

it ended out the other way. but it was fun though.

ok..enuff story. heres the pixxxxxxxxxxxxxx...

syuk's 22nd b'day!!!!