this feeling just sucks

i hated this feeling. the kind of feeling whereby u noe u've moved on and yet the same shit happens and its holding u aback. i shouldn't have met u the other day. u just have this strong tendency to make me an idiot to fall back for u. but, u wanna noe what? u can only defeat me for awhile cause i'm learning to be strong from mumma that life can be way much happier without u. i've risked being safe and i've always noe why. nothing from u can bring me down- i wish.

still arose at 9. damn.

i was forced to slacked with them at tampines mc'd and i thought that it would just end up till 1 or 2 am but i ended up home at 3! crap. hahaha.. was fun la. there were only the 5 of us and for the first time i didn't felt awkward being the only gerl. haha.. there were nazrul, syuk, shafiq, aliman and me and the topics we brought up was hilarious! standard ah they all. hahahahaha... they were out of ideas what to do and where to lepak and ended up sitting there till 3. fuhh... lucky me if not i have to go along. hehe.. slept at 4 and i am really frustrated with myself as i still can't force myself to wake up late and i end up waking up at 9! as usual.. shit. then now i got like a few hours before i go to work and i spend it blogging nonsencitical things.

talk was GREAT.

went down to millenia walk to collect my marathon race pack with hairi last friday. we were shocked at the looooonggg que but talking crap while queing does ease the feeling away. after getting our pack, we were like so jakun and very eager to look whats inside. hahaha....... but, after looking, nothing much... shaver. HAHAHAHA.. hairi, remember to shave eh! hahahahaha....
then, after we have collected and rumaged whats inside, we went to carrefour to get hairi's nutrisoy and went to grab a quick bite at old chang kee and we settled outside suntec by the road side! sungguh tak cool! hahaha.. but, it was fun. played stupid games, cracked silly jokes and made stupid topics. we had this 'talk' and i think that its kind of comfortable talking to hairi. very comfortable. so, after 3 hours on nonsence, we headed back home. well, actually, we never really want to go home but, have to lar. hahahaha... hairi, ingat eh, i nak sofa yang colour red and nanti u belikan i dining table yang kiter tengok tu ok? hahahahaha.... well, till here for now. to next baking! luv ya!

surprise! surprise! liars!

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ROZZY!

well, i have a very hard time to plan this surprise as everybody, including the birthday girl herself, and everything seems out of hand and not cooperating very well with me. first, the cake problem. everyone wants a fair share on sharing the cake price and their choice of cake 'brand'. then the invitation thingy. i never invite that person la this person la i basterd la i noe where i stand at work la.....BULLSHIT LA! and sumone seems to jatuh kan kawan sendiri depan member. tak pasal ah asalkan rozzy's b'day surprise a success!

then, the birthday girl was not at home! lagi plan fail! despite calling her to confirm that she will meet me after work! hmmphh!! then my fault ah?? hehe.. then, the rest have to wait for an hour and a half just to surprise her. and yes, i'm a liar! hahahaha.. only for yesterday eh. i lied about having my dad to wait and so on and guess wat?? almost 4 steps to the 'venue', she asked me....
rozzy: mane bapak kau? asal macam kecoh eh?
(wheres ur dad and why so noisy?)
me: entah ehh..
(dun noe.. *inside my heart i was swearing hard at them for making noise and 'spoil it)
rozzy: eh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then i just pulled her and................ SURPRISE!!!!
hopefully its a good one for u, rozzy. shikin and i planned it so hard and i having a hard time handling it. but it all worth it when the sabo-ed part get going.
ok sham, tolong tunjuk kan wheres my father.....
"TU!"
TADAA!!!! 'bapak' aku! hehehehehe....

i noe its over...

its over. so damn over. its over since the day i heard the most painful 2 words from u. yeahh... ITS FREAKING OVER and i noe there is no more chance and certainly no more room for me as well as for u too. u said it. u declared it. u react to it. and guess what, looking at u now is no longer a luxury for me and i noe its weird cause even a short glance at u USED TO BE a great priceless thing that can ever happened. i'm glad i've moved on- fast. and i'm really thankful that people around me seems so supportive and way more understanding than i thought it would turned out. i have pillars supporting me and u, u are so last summer. i am really glad that it came across me to leave u before i get too far in this mess. and i am super glad that at least it came out from ur mouth that i noe its tyme to give u up for sumone better. i never talked about u anymore and i am amazingly amazed that i am no longer hoping to look at u. u are so yesterday and now, u are just another moving clouds and gushing winds. btw, i still have to see u for some reason and as far as i am concern, my feelings are no longer attached to u. no longer. i'm happy with people i love that have been wif me way before u start a spark of history in my life. just GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK. u are not missed- at all. i promise.

gerls' party!!

yup, its just us gerls. its a gerls nyte out. no guys allowed except special cases!

hahahaha... went to parttayy with the fabulous gerls at power house and it was superb!!!! SUPERB!!!!! i noe the gerls enjoyed it too!!

it was a great nyte out despite some people trying to persuade me not to go. i noe its not my kinda place but once in awhile u worth going. i dun drink and wats there to worry??

i waited for sumbody to at least reply me and yet zero message and i just wanna have fun and shake the stress away. so, the gerls was such a great escape!

and so.... clubbing wasn't that bad afterall. hehehe....