dun ever hurt me by coming back.

u wasn't man enough.
so, back off.
i'm doing great now that its over- FINALLY.
its NEVER gonna come back or repeat.
u just stay where u are.
far away.
your play is done.
ITS MY TURN!

hire us- NOT!

spent half of the day baking hairi's and kabeer's birthday cake. and it was superbly fun! it ended up wif only me, syuk, rozzy and shafiq baking it. ernie was down wif fever and maya was uncontactable. hmm.. they came over to 'my' house and the house was filled with roaring laughters and sweet smelling brownies!!
so, these are part of the ingredients. and our very own 'chef' cum 'baker' syuk. oh ya, theres another wannabe chef also. and this post here includes 'behind the scene' cake the making video. i promise!
tadaa!! the wannabe!

so..... while waiting for the cake to bake, we spent the time doing stupid stuffs and occupied ourselves wif chocolates, singing and unbearable out-of-tune music composed by this 2 guys!

the 'macam paham!'

never thought that a simple piano can entertain them so well..

seriously, for the first time in life we are sick of chocolates! suddenly chocolates seems too much and too hard to handle! hahahaha... from cooking chocolate up to the hersheys' chips! all too much and i really need my run fast!

and this is after almost 5 hours of 'hard work'... -watever.. hahaha..

everybody, i repeat, EVERYBODY were looking forward for scraps of unwanted brownie including my mom! all of us excluding me were dipping BURNT brownies in the melted cooking chocolate and enjoying it! again, it was FUN!!!!!

almost done but stilllll.... hmmm....

and as promised... the video that will make bakeries to think more than twice whether to hire us or maybe jus not! enjoy!!

gone.

i was idling my phone around and came across the calendar. thats when it strucks me. i hate this part.

its jus five weeks ago i was having and spending some gud quality time wif u. we were talking and laughing and arguing and sharing and walking and loving each other's company. and now, its all OVER. jus like that. i dun noe why i got so emotional lately but its jus me.

that sumone made me turned into this kind of azura. do i really deserve this?

i dun noe. but, as i said, this is the best thing that is happening to me eventhough i hated it. complicated? yes it is. as for now, the profound effect is me having trouble brushing u off my mind.

its the old same shit.

its jus the same shit happens. i think that i jus got too used to it that i ran out of tears to spare. when it really hurts to the core right now, i am numb. i dun feel like crying- at all. i dun feel like picking up a fight wif u. seriously. i think that we both jus deserve whats happening now. u leaving me for sumone 'better' and me letting u go for her. letting go and move on right now is the best thing that i can ever do in life. becos i noe that i am being strong and very independent. i am not self-praising but jus feel that its true. the day i got to noe that u made ur decision, i jus feel like crying for one last time for u and i am lucky that tears are jus too little to spare. it did not even fill a bucket, what more a river. u gave me hope in a certain way that i feel it, and u leave it hanging without even bother to give me any signs of it. u sparked off happiness and u blew it away jus when the fire are jus about to start its flame. its ok. watever it is, i'm doing great. perfect. like u already noe, i have great fabulous people around me. they are always there for me. wat more now when u're gone. i'm sure they will stand by me. even when sumone 'perfect' at work called me a bitch, they defend me like no other. wat more can i ask ryte? so, to u my dearest used to be darling, i seriously hope that gud great things are upcoming your way.u are a such fantastic person to be wif. i noe cos i have been there. so long... sucker! hehe..

outdated me..

been very busy and hold aback by many things. hmm.. its outdated here but i just wanna keep track. marathon up till ubin. marathon was fine. BUT hell! overall.. i want more!!! hehehe.. 42km is jus perfect! shopping with the 2 crazy clique and ubin was superb!

after cycling, i was forced to train all the way to changi airport jus to meet hairi! and seriously, i hated the way i'm dressed to airport! i was so paranoid about it till maya and poor shai is tired of assuring me that its fine. :)

eventhough pay was little but still shop. hahaha.. but i shopped cheap ok! flip flop and thats about it!

i want MORE 42km!!!!!!!!!!!

at the 18th KM, it was pure hell! injured and tired. but i made through. and i'm happy about it but not proud as i finished it only at 7 am... :(

till here!