its the old same shit.

its jus the same shit happens. i think that i jus got too used to it that i ran out of tears to spare. when it really hurts to the core right now, i am numb. i dun feel like crying- at all. i dun feel like picking up a fight wif u. seriously. i think that we both jus deserve whats happening now. u leaving me for sumone 'better' and me letting u go for her. letting go and move on right now is the best thing that i can ever do in life. becos i noe that i am being strong and very independent. i am not self-praising but jus feel that its true. the day i got to noe that u made ur decision, i jus feel like crying for one last time for u and i am lucky that tears are jus too little to spare. it did not even fill a bucket, what more a river. u gave me hope in a certain way that i feel it, and u leave it hanging without even bother to give me any signs of it. u sparked off happiness and u blew it away jus when the fire are jus about to start its flame. its ok. watever it is, i'm doing great. perfect. like u already noe, i have great fabulous people around me. they are always there for me. wat more now when u're gone. i'm sure they will stand by me. even when sumone 'perfect' at work called me a bitch, they defend me like no other. wat more can i ask ryte? so, to u my dearest used to be darling, i seriously hope that gud great things are upcoming your way.u are a such fantastic person to be wif. i noe cos i have been there. so long... sucker! hehe..