i'm 21!

i never had a memorable birthday that can make me not sleep because i can't stop looking at my presents and recalling what happened and who did it just for me and having to choose which wrapper is the nicest one. people says that when u're 21, ur birthday is the most special one, no doubt.. mine was a blast! :)

thank u all who really came all the way to vivo and not amounting to how much u guys lied to me especially to (u noe who) just to made a beautiful surprise for me :) thank u all so much!!!

and of course to my lovely boyfriend, u're the BEST!
best organizer, best planner and nt forgetting, the best white 'liar'! :)

and like FINALLY we went to jurong birdpark! wee!! and great trip!

and lastly.. THANK U to:
1-Mr Boyfriend SYUKRI :)
2-rozzy GF
3-shikin GF
4-Mr Jumadi
5-The other ETP-ians that came down and the presents and the marvellous pressie :)
6-Nafa-ians
7-Mr Zainul
8-Mr Sapik
9-Mr Sahil
10-Mr Zul
11-TO ALL MY SUPERB FAMILY MEMBERS especially MAMA :)

i need them to be part of my 21st and last 20th

well.. knowing u girls really does wonders in my life. the moment i felt alone and bored and sad and left out, u two came to the rescue. and, i used to not worrying that i might lose u both one day as that was my biggest fear. but, time flies and we do changed. time have stole it all. or maybe we're just growing up too fast? one thing for sure, playing grown ups isn't at all fun, especially without u girls. just look at now. i wonder where is shikin. i wonder how long rozzy's hair have grown. hehe.. eventhough i am still in touch with rozzy, it is after all incomplete. right rozzy? we're not powerpuff girls or the female bujang lapok if its not us three..

blading.. slacking.. i miss all those :( i was just thinking to myself that i am a year older in less than 24 hours and i want to spend my 21st with u girls like i did for the past 4 years. but... guess we're too busy. just want to say i miss u, rozzy. and i miss u, shikin. and i miss our time together and i miss all the lame jokes that we can cracked and laughed about it for days!

and.... work sucks because i cannot share my locker with a black fcuk bag and the khaki green puma beg anymore. i can no longer slack at the usual hai sing spot. i miss the fun.i miss the laughter and i miss breaking fast with rozzy in the toilet! (remember, we can't tahan! hahaha!)
i miss waiting for rozzy at our port klang and shikin at chalet's toilet. i miss sharing nyonya fried rice. i miss dancing at kiddy track and i miss singing in the morning knowing that we have to do a shity station. haha! classic! and i miss eating on the same table with u two.. ok, till here...
I MISS U GIRLS BADLY. AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE U BOTH TILL ETERNITY :)

u are just another chapter that dun worth a thing.

i was browsing and arranging all my folders into place and i came across a few pictures. it made me smile- i can't deny. teared? a lil' in the heart. i dun noe why it happened but one thing for sure, all that are memories that may not be anymore priceless to me. easy said, i've moved on.

on track, it was nice knowing u. it was nice that i had a chance to get to noe someone i fell for better and what more, a date and an outing. a hug? i got it a couple of times but, it was all for a couple of huge mistake. too bad, we didn't make it. because, if we did, i would never be as happy as i am now because, i noe u can never make me happier as in your point of view, i was just a rebound. all those confessing, all those talks, all those dates, all those time we've spend, i'm glad i didn't fell for it hard enough. yes, its hard for me to move on in the beginning. maybe at that point of time i was stupid enough to give it a try like u asked for. but, guess what?
i am thankful that you left me. because, if u hadn't, i won't be happily attached to someone much worth it. so, on a lighter note,
i just realised that,
its not that i'm a rebound, but u're just disposable :)
may u be happy with ur life now because, i am enjoying mine with the people i care and the guy that i love. its not the same love i had for u, the one i had for u was crap. the one i'm having now is the one and only thing that u never deserve from me. such a waste i once gave u. shouldn't have done that. but well, shits happened, and thats why u did.