dark.

the only one thing that anyone would ask for in life is perfection.
that includes..
no miseries.
no hurt.
no pain.
no lies.
no imperfection.

i don't know why this strucked me suddenly. i don't know why i wasted another bucket of tears.
when i know its all not worth it.
u came not once, but twice. u gave hope in a certain way, high enough to bring me to cloud nine and u left it hanging. i have to struggle back to ground-alone.
i never been sincerely happy since my parents divorce and the simplest thing u did break the rules. i was glad that it happened and i am better if it doesn't at all.

however, i am thankful that i get back to my feet now that i have gathered so much courage to do so.
thankful that its finally over after so much pain.
thankful that i have finally get over it.
thankful that i can face u-still- without any grudges.
thankful that in short, u have get out of my life.

and now, i never thought that i can still be friends with u after so much hell u made me go through.
so much tears u made me teared.
and i never thought that i will have this courage to help u in any ways.
some people call me stupid.
even mama said i'm an idiot to still help somebody that robbed my trust.
but, one thing for sure, i lose nothing helping u cause i gain nothing ignoring as well.
and so, please stop being nice to me and i promise i will never cry for u anymore. please.