Trust. Golden trust.

U have to choose the right person. And, i didn't. But, now that i know, u're no longer my fren. I do not need u nor know u. How i wish i could turn back time and start back with no secrets shared with u. U, are not a fren anyone would ever wanted.

Crayons.

I'm glad i got back whats have always been mine.

Love Drunk.

Starting afresh. There are lots of things i wanna share. More than 365 days of events. But, i dun think i can remember all. So, lets just say that everything was ok, i guess.

09.10.11
Since midnight strucks, i've been keeping vigil of my phone. Midnight, no message nor call. 1am, nothing too. 2am, still nothing. 3am, i almost gave up, well, indeed i did. Fell asleep with my phone still in my hands.
Did u forget what today is? Or, u're still mad about friday? Or, from the moment u left me alone and said u hate seeing me is for real? And to u, its really over between us?
I'm tired. I am not strong enuff (yet) to deal with all this. U didn't contact me for more than 36hours now. I cried myself to sleep so much that whenever i woke up, theres a pounder in my head and swollen eyes. Its torturous!
For now, i am still waiting.. This is the reason why previously before u, i've never been in love for 3 years..

the great escape.

there will surely be a next time :)

paradise.

well, a short update.
I AM GOING ON A HOLIDAY!!!!!! -finally.
a short getaway is all i need and i am happy that i am going with my beloved muhd syukri and friends and the best thing is that i am getting a hotel room all to myself! wee!!

be back in 4 days time and i am so gonna shop till i drop! woohoo!!

wavehouse.

ok.. again like finally i managed to finish up this post which have been in my drafts for so longggg. ok, back on track, went to the wavehouse to support hui li for her seventeen summer beach babe/hunk comp and it was a nice finish :) congratulations to HUI LI!!!

and this pretty lady, aishah of course :) damn u aishah! hahaha.. 50 bucks just like that!

well, it was nice and the weather was perfectly hot and the ambiance was fine. i do enjoyed myself except at one particular moment which i do not wish to elaborate so as to not spoil my blog post.. just a little reminder, dun go around cutting people's conversations. thank u.

DON'T ASK ME WHAT HE IS DOING AND WHO IS DOING IT WITH!

and lastly, we do have a whole lot of 'free tanning'. i'm not dark enuff meh?? hehe.. till he next one people! *wink*

like finally...almost finally..

its been like ages since the last update. many things happened and changed. some were expected and some happened just as i wanted it to be.
on the 10th june, boyfriend and i freed ourselves from work and went on a "so long never do this" date :) although some things weren't meant to happen but stubbornly did happened, i still am proud to announce that I HAVE TAKEN THE SINGAPORE FLYER! hehe.. like FINALLY!

well, its a 'present' from my favourite boy on our 6th month :) oh ya, thank u:) :) :)
the scenes were just breath taking! it was indeed a nice surprise.

and another surprise was on 6th june. well, i NEVER expected that i would be going out the WHOLE DAY to the SAME PLACE in the SAME CAR eating on the SAME TABLE and chatting around with HIS FAMILY! because, all i know is that his family does not know that i exist! like i swear!

ok, cut a long story short, we went to watch his sister's tertiary silat competition at persisi together with his family, his colleague (which is sometimes mine also) and his buddy din. spent the whole day there and i swear i love watching silat because its just entertaining and engaging. nice. ok, i think that its either god answered my prayer or he is just secretly reading my blog.

because, all i ever wanted have been fulfilled on the 6th june. so, is this guy in his favourite striped shirt have been reading my blog? hmmm... i wonder. it was unexpected! but still, i thank god for granting all my prayers. Alhamdulillah :)

well, even so, although i went out with his mum and all, they still do not know who i really am. all they know is that i am the colleague of their second son. but still, i am thankful that at least what i want have become what i once wanted.

and yes, not forgetting, his family.

p.s:
i guess and i hope this is just the best beginning because i dun really feel like i am the other girl anymore.