stupid mistake.

wasn't in the best ever situation last night after work.
maybe its normal for us to fight and then laugh it off at the end of the day.
but yesterday's fight wasn't the 'normal' fights we usually had. it never was.
i never been shouted at like that and seriously, u are good at making me cry, boy.
i swear i never meant it that way and u, u just got to control ur anger and talk to me nicely.
i know its my fault and i've apologised not once, but countless. even on the bike when we're going to whitesands, i apologised and keep on apologising. and still, i was shouted at.
at that point of time, i seriously felt like taking my stuffs and walk off! only that one thing was stoping me- my bag is in ur bike! dang!
and another thing is that, if only i never promised the other two to meet up at whitesands.
i will definitely by then, walk off! i hate u! i hate u! i hate u!

then, we had this talk. i hated that talk. hate it like i hate u!
but, u, u made me think. like finally! yes i know i've promised to act normal at work.
but, again but, how could i be so cruel to act the way we should be infront of the person who have heart on you way before i did?? u tell me.
and yes, i am so sorry and i seriously need time to suit myself in this situation at work. i need time to act the way i supposed to. i need time. and again, before i decided that i will be with u, we made a pact that we're gonna keep it low. so, whos mistake now? i wonder.

on a lighter note, still,
I LOVE U.